Time spent in my Bible making notes and underlining texts.

Boy was I pissed when I wrote this beautiful blog post the first time and it did not save! “F**k. “Sorry God.” I said, feeling frustrated and overwhelmed. In that moment, and many future moments, I wasn’t living up to the textbook list of what a person of my faith should be like.

Yep, I am a Christian who uses profanity when upset. I am not proud of it, and feel bad for the displeasure it gives my mother, or any other respected elder in my life.

However, it is who I am, and just one of many flaws I am praying God will ultimately conquer in my life.

Years ago I let my personal flaws stop me from going to church. This managed to steal years of progress I could have made if I had only known then what I know now.

God loves you right now. No matter how broken or ashamed you feel, He loves you and will help you, if you will only ask Him.

You need proof? Here are just a few Bible verses that hopefully will dispel any unbelief that you are loved in your messy life.

When Jesus heard it, He said to them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance. - Mark 2:17
Jesus answered, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.” Luke 5: 31,32

These are just a couple of verses. The Bible is full of mercy that is preferred over justice. God desires to save as many as possible and He will start wherever we are right now.

So bring your broke ass to church. Start now, not later. He will help clean you up. It is not something you can do alone. You absolutely need Him to do it. You just show up and participate.

Here are just a few steps He needs from you:

Prayer should become almost like breathing. Do it everyday whenever you can. Let it become part of your daily routines. Do it formally in private on your knees or while sitting on the toilet. However you can start, just start. Be honest and pour your heart out to your Heavenly Father. Tell Him everything, He already knows anyway and loves you. What He wants is a relationship with you. He wants you to tell Him, ask Him, mostly talk to Him.
Bible “study” is just reading the bible at first. Open it. Read a few verses. Think about them. What do they mean. It will be hard at first. Treat reading your bible like eating a meal. Don’t eat to much or to often during one day. You need time to digest it. So once or twice a day in small amounts is all a baby Christian can digest at first. As you grow, your ability to consume more of your “daily bible bread” will also increase.
Exercise. What this means is start talking to others about your questions and what you are learning about God. Don’t be afraid to talk to others about your journey and seek out answers from trusted Christian friends. This should feel like exercise. A little uncomfortable and maybe leave you“sore” but nothing catastrophically damaging. Don’t go stand on a corner and suddenly try to preach your new found desire. This will be a disaster. Just “exercise” talking about God or your questions about Got with others gently at first. This builds your Christian muscles for later talking more robustly about your journey.

That’s it my friends. These baby steps will get you on the road to a beautiful and loving relationship with your Heavenly Father.

Eventually you will overcome those “flaws” that kept you out of church, but now you will do it seated squarely in church. Cussing and all. God speed and Hugs.

Get your broken @ss to God Now…not later!